Friday, June 30, 2006

Tree, Leaf, Wind !!!

Hi all...
This is a forward, am posting it here as i juz wanted to share this with all..
The Story goes here, the 3 characters [Tree, Leaf, Wind] telling abt themselves...



People call me "Tree".

I had dated 5 girls when I was in Pre-U. There is one girl who I love a lot but never dared to go after. She didn't have a pretty face, good figure or an outstanding charm. She was just a very ordinary girl. I liked her. I really liked her. I liked her innocence, her frankness, her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her was that I felt somebody so ordinary like her was not a good match for me. I was also afraid that after we were together all the feelings would vanish. I was also afraid other's gossip would hurt her.

I felt that if she were my girl, she'd be mine ultimately & I didn't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompanying me for 3 years. She watched me chase other girls, and I have made her heart cry for 3 years. She was a good actor, and me a demanding director. When I kissed my second girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smiled & said, "Go on!" before running off.
The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut. I did not want to know what caused her to cry. Later that day, I returned from soccer training to get something & watched her cry in the classroom for an hour or so. My fourth girlfriend did not like her.

There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she is not the type that will start the quarrel. However, I still sided my girlfriend. I shouted at her & ignored her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she was laughing & joking with me like nothing happened. I know she was hurt but she did not know deep down inside I was hurt too.

When I broke up with my fifth girlfriend, I asked her out. Later that day, I told her I had something to tell her. I told her about my break up.
Coincidentally, she has something to tell me too, about her getting together. I knew who the person was. His pursuit for her had been the talk of the School. I did not show her my heartache, just smiles & best wishes.
Once I reached home, I could not breathe. Tears rolled & I broke down.
How many times have I seen her cry for the man who did not acknowledge her presence?

During graduation, I read a SMS in my hp. It said, "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"



People call me Leaf.

During the 3 years of Pre-U, I was on very close terms with a guy as buddy kind. However, when he had his first girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hid my happiness. But after a month, he got together with another girl.

I liked him & I know he liked me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he loves me why he didn't he make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. After some time, I began to suspect that this was one-sided love. If he didn't like me, why did he treat me so well? It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. I know his likes, his habits.
But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a girl, to ask him. Despite that, I still wanted to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, and love him. Hoping that one day, he will come to love me. Because of this, I waited for him. Sometimes, I wondered if I should continue waiting. The pain, the dilemma accompanied me for 3 years.

At the end of my 3rd year, a junior pursues me. Everyday he pursues me.
He's like the cool & gentle wind, trying to blow off a leaf from a tree.
In the end, I realized that I wanted to give this wind a small footing in my heart.
I know the wind will bring the leaf to a better land. Finally, leaf left the tree, but the tree only smiled & didn't ask me to stay.

Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or cause Tree didn't ask her to stay.



Because I like a girl called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree, so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 month after I was transferred to this new school. I saw a petite person look ing at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends, looking at him. When he talks with girls, there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit.
Just like, she likes to look at him.

One day, she didn't appear. I felt something missing. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her.
Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accepts the note.
The next day, she appeared & passes me a note and left.

It read, "Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away."

"It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree." I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times.
Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her.
Although I know, she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope.

Hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked, "What are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I could n't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her doorbell. During the moment when she opens the door, I hugged her tightly.

Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay...



In love, we win very rarely, but when love is true, even if you lose, you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone more than you love yourself. There comes a time when we stop loving someone, not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that, they'd be happier if we let go....

Why do we close our eyes when we sleep? When we cry? When we imagine?

There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind, but keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world.
It's the beginning of a new life. Happiness lies for those who cry those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of the people who have touched our lives.

A great love? It's when you shed tears and still you care for them, it's when they ignore you and still you long for them. It's when they begin to love another and yet you smile and say, "I'm happy for you." If love fails, set yourself free, let your heart spread its wings and fly again.
Remember you may find love and lose it, but when love dies, you never have to die with it.

The strongest people are not those who always win but those who stand back up when they fall. Somehow, along the course of life, you learn about yourself and realize that there should never be regrets, only a lifelong appreciation of the choices you've made. Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but how you understand, not what you see but how you feel, and not how you let go but how you hold on.

It's more dangerous to weep inwardly rather than outwardly. Outward tears can be wiped away while secret tears scar forever...
It's best to wait for the one you want than settle for one that's available.
It's best to wait for the right one because life is too short to waste on just someone.


CIAO.. :)

Thursday, June 29, 2006

Goa !!!

Hi all..

Am not gonna scribble much in this post.. Yeah, am gonna put some pix taken during my Trip to Goa..

The plan was started a month back by my colleagues, and they started all the discussions thru mail, and one day wen i opened my yahoo mail i saw around 80 mails with subject Re: Tour Plan !! I juz selected everything and deleted,

I was not much interested in the trip from the beginning, as i thought takin leave for 2 days immediately after joining in a new company is very bad and also for some other reasons...

But finally, i started with them for the trip.. we reached there by Air Deccan, i wont comment much abt the flight journey, but i really enjoyed the sight seeing wen we wer nearing Goa.. May be the pilot thought we wll enjoy those stuffs, and hence was flyin very low.. or is it the nature of Air Deccan ATR buses by themselves tat they cant go further higher.. :) I donno.. :))

It was monsoon time, and the rain started heavily from our second day.. And we got 3 bikes to roam around several beaches in Goa.. We dint even care for gettin completely wet in the rain, and most of the time we wer in bike.. as and wen we reach some Beach, they wll say all the water rides/other things hv been closed 'coz of monsoon and dont get in as the weather is rough.. blah blah.. :))

The things which i really enjoyed in the trip s tat we played in the swimmin pool in our Beach Resort for hours.. and during nights we played cards, and wer fighting/tryin to hit others like anything..

Here are some of the good quality pixxxx....!!!!
In Dona Paulo Beach

Climbin the Chapora Fort

Taking rest after a long Bike ride

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Gone are the days...!!!

Hi all..

This is the snap tat was taken in the midnight of 23rd December 2005.. after gettin a lot of bumps.. yeah that was my Birthday.. and i lov this snap more than anything else...

Tomoro is Bday for one another [stupid] in this snap.. :) ..It has been hardly 6 months.. and so many things have happend in our lives [most of them being gud.. is a gud sign, amidst small small bad things.. :)] tat all of us are not together at this point of time..

Am in Hyderabad.. One guy in Bangalore.. and the other in Chennai [as of date]*.. This much s the change tat life can bring amongst ppl.. :)

So wat am gonna write in the post.. And wats this title abt.. Gone are the days !! Yeah...

Gone are the days, wen we used to roam like anything in chennai

Gone are the days, wen we used to play cards till 3 or 4 O Clock in the night

Gone are the days, wen we used to quarrel after playin cards.. :)

Gone are the days, wen we used to bunk office n go to Satyam n then a back-to-back film in Devi..

Gone are the days, wen we used to shop like anything.. :)

Gone are the days, wen we used to kalasify each other..

and it goes on and on.. tats enough for this post.. see u all again soon..

CIAO.. :)

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

New Place.. New Faces.. New Environment..!!

Hi all..
After some break.. am back again.. makin one more vetti post.. :)
Am in a new place nw, in a new environment and amongst too many new faces.. Its natural tat u get to feel a lot, for missing the very gold olden memories tat u hav crossed by.. But still u need to adhere to the new environments u go by.. as life s always dynamic n not static.. and u donno wer u wll b tomoro, u donno with whom will u b tomoro.. and u cud hv never imagined u r with somebody today..

And we hv to always cope up with that juice of dynamism in life.. though it pricks us too much.. for tat we need to be a dynamic personality.. and tats wat am tryin to be..

Am not sure, wether am makin any sense out of this post..
Am juz writing watever am experiencing in the days tat are passing by.. and nothing else more than tat... :)

So, possibly i wll come up with a meaningful post next time.. and not irritate u ppl too much..